I get confused a lot...

More often than I should actually I’d think...

You see I want you but you’re in this phase where you’re  chillin...

An important stage for you actually...

But while I’m here picking up the pieces he shattered your heart into you barely even realize I’ve mended my pieces of my own to bring yours together...

With every perfect fit I placed a perfect stitch bringing my heart matching yours that’s been broken...

“Hey I really don’t see you that way I’m sorry”

Shots fired like full metal jacket bullets from a 50cal round penetrating my flesh dispersing the fragments of my body around the earth where I was created from...

It’s tragic...

How infectious your love can be to me the very glance of your smile before my day will turn dark clouds to clear skies and raging waters to still ponds you don’t even realize the destruction you’ve raged within my life....

How I’ve gone from wondering if you’ve ate to wondering what we are now again sitting here waiting for a call
a response
a text
a snap
SOMETHING!!
just feel the slightest of being wanted again....

But how can I?

How unfair it is to hold you hostage of a situation you don’t even want to begin to be in...

Ill let you chill....

But why does it feel that my mind tells me to move on but with every step I take forward I’m cheating on my own heart...

I’ll let you chill...

I pray one day you won’t feel this way....

Cause I get confused a lot.....

More often than I should....

You think?