How do you pretend not to care, yet all you wanna do is care? Put everything out of your mind, but it’s still the only thing you think about. I don’t enjoy this feeling of emptiness, I have no sense of control. Why the hell can’t I seem to find the will to let it all go? I don’t want to let it go yet but it’s the only way to end the pain. The guilt becomes all I see, even though I’m not to blame. The past comes back to haunt me more than anyone knows. And yet I can’t let it go.