When you smile
And pretend, as if everything’s well and fine
How could I not realize, all of it were so untrue?

The longing, the grief of being incomplete
The unhappiness of being left out
None of it mirrored in your shine
Keeping worries in the closet of your solitude
And hiding its keys,
you would conceal the misery
I didn’t see any of it then,
but now I’m no more indifferent.

How did I come so far?
Not quite sure of it
When I close my eyes and see you, mother.
I see light, a certain radiance
And you are bright core of it

The ways appear, the paths get clear
And I get this bit of wisdom clear
You are soul and you are love
The memories of your sacrifices
the unknown fear of not seeing you anymore
All of it helps me remember your tears

Of times when you were here
Even time cannot erase
Of your voices that used echo around
Even heart cannot quieten

These days, often I ask you
To know where have you been gone?
It follows a silence, a certain kind of pure sadness
Now I know, the distance to be with you
Is endless, infinite.

I don’t belong in your soul anymore.
You are gone, eaten by the ghastly flames of paradise
Smoked out into the skies of heaven.