Every day gets better and I can sense the deepening connection but then he turns his back on me, taking us back to the beginning and leaving me in constant wonder. And he's beautiful like a chilly Big Prairie night sky with skin that beckons and a song that sends shivers.  How can I keep winding down this dark road when I know, yes I know, that so soon we will fall? My holiday road, so narrow I crawl, attempting to reach something out of my reach! My dear, come near, you're needed right here, alone but I feel like I'm with the whole world. How can you deceive, how you move every string, delicate and tender and afraid of tangles, how can you be sure of a love so undiscovered? A misunderstanding, perhaps no more than a dream.