tonight,
i am sad.
not new,
i mean,
being sad.
but,
being sad
for reasons.
and not just
get sad for
no reasons.

i often
let myself
just get sad
or i’m just
really sad
as a whole,
literal sadness.

but tonight
is different.
there’s like
a lot of things
that repressing
my emotions and

maybe this is
real sadness.