receding childhood, and youth approaching fast,
still wondering where am I.
doubts and questions, answers is what I seek,
difficult to find some faces to rely.

so many wishes and so many dreams,
in a dilemma of thoughts, blurred is my aim.
the two aspects, Triumph and Defeat,
hard to treat the two just the same.

this never ending twilight of adolescence,
makes me numb, still i'm shining gay.
a stir right there in my chest,
wanna go home but can't find a way.

seeing her face, these voids vanish,
but some lingering questions can't leave me alone.
dunno why am I blushing,
it seems my lips have a mind of their own.

pretending to be sad, as if nothing happened,
still searching happiness wherever i can.
I keep asking the same question to myself,
am I grown up child or a childish man?