well.. over ten years ago i was diagnosed as...
depressed, schizophrenic, but esp. psychotic...
which is nice, the drugs are great...
non-hallucinatory,
yet a wild-bunch of sedation mingling
with internalized energy while drinking; why?
for not even making a false claim,
for not making an accusation...
right now i feel like Tomasz Komenda
(tó(h)-mash - yes, that diacritical mark is there...
because you don't say too or to...
which, is basically without a differential bias...
you stop short on the omicron,
and hide a H after the omicron is cut short
from a full rolling effect)...
yes, and on the continent
it's Alice in Wonderland: guilty until proven guilty...
but when i was visiting those parts
(winters always give off the effect of... well...
these continental parts, in winter? the air...
has a smoky perfume, smoky pine perfume
working the nostrils, ******* amazing).
- you should have seen the look of redemption
in this man's face...
Shawshank and ****...
                   re-dem-ption...
   which... yes yes... i know 18 years in jail...
18 years lost, some people die aged 18...
but now? he can sue...
and become profound with glee of
redemption...
          and yes, i know the logic of
"innocent" until proven guilty is the better
model...
  but?
         that's currently disintegrating
into a minority report style of... surveillance...
England is titillating the reverse logic
of the continent...
  what with the victims of ol' Jimmy having
neither: redemption or... retribution...
other than a smashed gravestone...
and then reading into the news...
they diagnosed me at "mentally ill" all those
years back...
   and now?
i'm mad... clearly people haven't
been satisfied with what i call justice...
quiet enough...
                             personally? i love the drugs
and i'm... titillated in the most perverted
way, by what the collective hive
is up to...
                     i'm loving it, and i'm saying
the word love - with a grin that encompasses
passing the word through clenched teeth...
United Kingdom is a ****-show...
back in the 90s it was: Mecca...
literally...
                       it was Mecca...
a honing piece of land...
     and no, Brexit is already a farce...
  it's idiotic, the Northen Irish will become
the deal-breakers,
          and no, oh no...
            Britain didn't "leave" the Union for
some, majestic reasons...
       you have three "problems" at play...
the sight of Polacks, Romanians and
Bulgarians...
                 that's it...
              my family had two stabs
at migrating to, what should have been
U.K., Argentina, America...
sidelined by a *******'s worth lawyer...
    sure... my parents were stupid,
they were young... i was an illegal alien at
some point, we were given 2 weeks notice
before we were, "deported":
first time i flew British Airways first class...
****... i remember the prawns...
yummy...
       one year spent in England...
watched the world cup final in the dark
with my great-grandmother...
'1998...
               second time my parents
                got the basics, and hired a good
lawyer... and so... here i am...
dual citizenship...
                    once i was stopped in the street
by a fish shop drinking a beer
and pausing for a cigarette when
a private car pulled up,
  and the coppers came out,
two women, one old guy...
   who had the expression on his face:
just one month before i retire,
please...
        ID? will a bank card suffice?
where do i live? just around the corner,
less than a minute's walk...
what do i have in my back-pack?
two bottles of wine and a bottle of coke...
so i figured... ID...
     better apply for
my Polish identity card...
  which i did...
               thing is...
                               over 10 years ago
they diagnosed me with all manner of illnesses,
yet i've never step foot into
a mental hospital...
                   i was never: SECTIONED...
well... now that that's out...
apparently i didn't enter an asylum...
because the asylum came to me.

p.s. last time i checked...
  the only people who should / could ban you
from using things like,
a hammer, a nail, a fork, a spoon...
the ******* internet....
are...
(a) the service providers,
     BT, SKY, ****** etc...
and...
  (b) the energy companies...
    British Gas, etc.

          but these companies are not
fighting this fight of the middle-men...
third parties...
              how can you ban someone
from using the software...
        leaving them with a pointless
ownership of the, hardware?
             it makes no sense to ban someone
from using the software,
because, that translates into
the obsolete purpose of the hardware
that provides access... to the ******* software!