Why are you still even on my mind, when the last thing you said to me wasn’t even goodbye. Thinking back to our last conversation, but I can’t seem to recall whether or not you meant it at all. As the thoughts overflow my mind, it makes me wonder if what we shared even comes close to what I felt. It’s usually all fun and games until the truth comes to the surface, and that’s when reality sets in. You couldn’t have meant everything you said, all the while you were talking to me, you were still with her. How can it be that I fell so easily with your words that even in my dreams the tears are so real. I need you to tell me once and for all, everything you said to me, all the laughs we shared, the moments we cried, that it meant nothing to you. I can’t keep going out of my mind for you when everything you told me was just a lie. You took me along for the ride and didn’t even bother to return your love. Instead you fill my mind with thoughts of what used to be and the best times of my life, only to crush my heart again when time runs out. Don’t you see, when you cut me I bleed just the same as you, I feel things the same as you do, and the actions you take bear such consequences. You had no right to open that chapter up again and leave me feeling so empty inside. How dare you use my pain as your personal gain. Shame on you for inflicting these empty promises along with all of your words which fell flat. Even after all the pain, my heart still yearns for your undeserving love. Why can’t the pain you instilled on me be enough for my heart to heal and move on. The torture remains constant and you don’t even lose a nights sleep........