I know that this isn't always the case But I do sincerely feel better If I'm in the midst of romance When things are occurring and keeping up Often and when I want them too I'm sure many feel this.
I have so much to read Imagining their hands on someone else I wonder if I'm just ******* fooling myself "Never give men the benefit of the doubt, at least that's what I've learned." A friend of mine said today When discussing the new boyfriend of a woman I used to sleep with As we wondered if she knew.
Surely she must. ?
I know you cannot find happiness Through the eyes of another But I do wonder How so many find and keep Maintain Though mine are still there Wanting and trembling As I'm gone so often And portray a cool but meaningful Demanding presence Distant.
I think of how much I just want to move someplace else again.
My mind wanders to the couples that watch television together Make love, cook, clean, take out the garbage I think of the times I have had that The many times And how fulfilling and unfulfilling they all were.
I don't really know what I'm doing right now Sometimes I feel totally free and at peace with it But at this moment Almost like clock work I feel neglected, forgotten, too chill