Oct 2018
I must warn you of my condition
Could it really be depression?
It's a disorder I have yet to oblige
For now I'll call it a thorn in my side
But I promise you everything will be alright
I'll get through and I'll be just fine
This thorn in my side may give me some fear
But I've come to understand why it is here
This weakness is not something to hide behind
But a way for me to finally find
Those who are going through the same exercise
Learning with these people how to empathize
And teaching me that I must learn to consign
My thoughts and fears to leave them behind
May these sufferings be scars of my loyalty
And strengthen me in God's sovereignty
I will endure the thoughts I face all day long
Because it is in the Lord that I belong
Were it not for Him, I would have given to the grave
But in His power and goodness, I am saved
Could it really be depression?
It's a disorder I have yet to oblige
For now I'll call it a thorn in my side
But I promise you everything will be alright
I'll get through and I'll be just fine
This thorn in my side may give me some fear
But I've come to understand why it is here
This weakness is not something to hide behind
But a way for me to finally find
Those who are going through the same exercise
Learning with these people how to empathize
And teaching me that I must learn to consign
My thoughts and fears to leave them behind
May these sufferings be scars of my loyalty
And strengthen me in God's sovereignty
I will endure the thoughts I face all day long
Because it is in the Lord that I belong
Were it not for Him, I would have given to the grave
But in His power and goodness, I am saved
In 2 Corinthians 12, Paul talks about a 'thorn in his side' that weakened him and even prevented him from sharing the Gospel at times. It wasn't clear what this thorn symbolized, but God allowed it to be there so he would have to depend on others to learn humility and empathize with others who go through the same struggle. After reading this, that's how I started to view myself, and I was given hope. I believe God allowed this to be here so I can learn to depend on others and trust them, which I'm not good at doing, and empathize with others who are going through a simular thing.
Praise God for being faithful, for strengthening us, for the hope He has given us! I love you guys, and I want you to know that God will meet you wherever you are at in your life right now. He's always there to turn to, I promise. And even better, He won't keep you where you are; He will deliver you from whatever you're going through and He'll strengthen you and be by your side :)
Praise God for being faithful, for strengthening us, for the hope He has given us! I love you guys, and I want you to know that God will meet you wherever you are at in your life right now. He's always there to turn to, I promise. And even better, He won't keep you where you are; He will deliver you from whatever you're going through and He'll strengthen you and be by your side :)
