Where did I come from
When did I learn
How to be
And not be
Myself

You called it self care
But you didn't know
I was sacrificing
My peace
For pleasure

They say that it's too
Expensive
Losing peace
But I can't seem to
Let go
Of this beautiful suffering
And magnificent
Betrayal

I am two
Shades of grey
A storm
Looming over myself
Longing for sunshine
But dancing in the rain

You called it self care
Truth
But you didn't know
I'd been
Swimming in a puddle
Of lies