when i act like everythings ok
it makes things worse
its like
my idea of reality is disoriented
and somethings ******* with my mentality
when in all actuality
im just rotting from the inside out
and its hard to breath
and i wont to shout
because i don't want all the pain i carry
to spill out

"i want to just make you smile
and ill try
even in the end
its happens to be, that my insides dies"

and i've promised

and i've stayed true to that promise
but its worth the death
i'm just lost
lost
lost
lost