i remember my first thoughts of you
how your eyes were gold
they glimmered when i looked inside of them
how i felt
butterflies
goosebumps
and i couldnt keep the corners of my lips from producing a smile.
i remember my first thoughts of you
how swoon your skin on my skin made me.
now when i think of you
i feel things in my stomach
knots on knots
you make me feel like ive caught a plague
that no longer exists, i have it.
you make my skin boil
you make me feel mean
and when i think of you now
i just feel utterly weak
disgusting
you disgust me
your memory has been tarnished
you were disguised as a heaven
but you were my greatest hell
ive escaped you
im leaving
for good
good riddance