All I want
More than anything I’ve ever wanted
Is to go somewhere beautiful
Alone
And stand there
Maybe on a mountain
Alone
And just cry
Feeling everything
And being allowed to feel it
No one to ask what is wrong with me if I scream
Or sob
I’ve been randomly sobbing
I’ll be sitting on the toilet
Or brushing my hair
Today I was washing my face
And tears just started leaking out of my eyes
I had to hold in my brokenness
In case someone heard
But if I was on a mountain
I could feel
I would be allowed to feel it all
And I would finally be alone
All I want
More than anything
I have ever wanted
Is to leave everyone behind
And be
And feel
Everything
And be allowed to feel everything
Loudly
Unapologetically
And without need for explanation