I live being lost
in a river of despair
with hopeless dragging me down
and never surfacing for air

His face is sewed into my brain
and the seams are only thickening
the face he makes when he sees me
is only going to make love more sickening

I feel my heart leap into my throat
and my soft palms begin to sweat
when he ever so gracefully walks
as if we just first met

His eyes how they shimmer
like diamonds in the sun
his hair is a wave of lush
and our secret love has only begun