When I talk about my spirituality and the classes I’ve taken in college, I feel a sense of superiority. My journal entries and walks around the park. Flowers blooming that I didn’t plant. I tell myself I know what it feels like to be alive. I jumped off a bridge once: 750 feet off a bridge in Africa. The 17 hour flight back home to you was the most exciting part. I always say “don’t question the unknown” “Some things are not supposed to have answers” I’m always searching for an answer in you. I’m not scared of life. I’m not scared of knowledge I’m not scared of heights. I’m scared of you.