Times have been changing...
yet somethings have stayed the same...
I have become a better person...
made myself a new name...

Tried new things, quit others...
met new people, lost some old...
Truths were said to some...
to others lies were told...

No regrets was my motto...
since the beginning of the year...
I sit here today in sorrow...
mulling it over an ice cold beer...

I could of sworn I did it right...
maybe just this one time...
But scorned by her...
as if I had committed a crime...

Left to my own demons...
as I am slowly consumed...
Darkness surrounds me...
sooner than I presumed...

You were the light...
which guided me in the night...
The one who led me to believe...
that I was doing everything right...

You could have save me from it...
saved me from the brink...
In seconds my life shattered...
gone in less than a blink...

I had given you everything...
but you just let it go...
Forgtten I was to be, discarded...
who was I to know...

I take a swig from my beer...
my only friend in my time of need...
The true friend thats there for me...
no matter how much I bleed...

I laugh to think I thought it would work...
17th times the charm...
But now the mere thought of you...
just causes harm...

Numb the pain I tell myself...
just forget it took place...
And yet I can't stop thinking about it...
each time I see your face...

I know I'm not meant for this...
I'm meant for something more...
Something better...
and not to be stepped on like this here floor...

You pushed me away...
when I only wished you the best...
And told you that you were beautiful...
more so than the rest...

You smile and wave like nothings wrong...
yet its there...
You'll never know what could of been...
but where...

Deep down you'll find it...
but I'll be long gone...
Left alone at nights...
waiting for the dawn...

I was there when you needed me most...
when you were lonely...
But you pushed me away and never saw how i felt...
if only...