Talking to others leads to the feeling of guit
The feeling of a relationship that was built
Is still smudged, dark as night, on my conscious.
Combined together in a one sided partnership
My once lovely red beating heart, turned to ebony
By your scared, fearful, controlling tendencies
When I dressed, I had to keep you in mind
Looking even slightly desirable to another man wasn't right
All of my male companions
They had to be abandoned
Just so that I could send your wandering mind at ease
I bent over backwards, always attempting to please
My spine & discs melted inside of my back
You didn't mind, you liked that
The ways you made me compromise & mold
The way you made me rip & fold
I finally decided to stand up to you
To say no, to say that you were just to cruel
I pulled all of the strength that I had inside of me
And I knew that I had to leave
But you stain my every action
Even  now, even just a little faction
There is a tall overshadow over my eyes
I want to love, but I can't help but lie
And I'll keep escaping out of the blue bathroom window
Until the knees of my tights are stained indigo