Sometimes I wake,
In the middle of the night.
And I watch the moon.

I'm barely conscious,
But my mind's already racing.

And then I wake in the morning.
And I understand what you mean,
when you say those foul things.

I ask myself what's wrong with me.
I understand why you hate me.
Because now I hate myself too.

You see me laughing,
But I'm silently screaming.

The harsh words run through my head,
a never ending cycle,
and I can't think about anything else.

You judge without knowing,
tell without seeing first.
You think I'm powerless to you,
little do you know.

But,
the scars beneath
the mask you see,
and the creak in my bones,
hide who I want you to see.

Now you seem to be winning,
so I surrender.

Take your thorns
and drag them along my face.
Set fire to my soul.
Freeze my heart so I'm just like you.
Then leave me drowning.

Let the wind rip out my hair,
and torture me once more.
'Till I fall to my knees sobbing.

Leave me with my heart broken,
like so many before.
I'll sew it back up again,
just so you can rip it out more.

Tell me you love me,
then show me that you don't.
Toy in my heart
and leave me in pieces.

Then you walk away
and don't look back.
May we meet again,
sooner or later
I'll see you when the tides have turned
and then
maybe...
maybe you'll know how it feels
to be the outcast.