Today my goal is to
                    eat and shower.
disassociate from the lack of sleep.
My mind singing a mantra of random
                                              nothings.
Clattering around like pans.
I don't feel real anymore.
Everything's so blurry and distant.
Never able to attain
                               anything.
Inconsistency is my middle name.  
You'll never know who ill be the next day.
self mutilation is my favorite hobby.
whatever it is i want it to hurt at least a little.
The Ice Cold Burn.
Pushing my self to the edge to see what waits below.
The journey i travel is treacherous.
surprises are lovely but there are hardly any pleasant ones.

The morning assaults my eyes.
your seeing through my facade.
but don't sweat it
                 I see through yours too.