I am no innocent being guilty am I of emotionless touch strategically avoiding attachment reducing myself to an object of lust
I ****** the ones I loathe the most ****** movements and tasteless smalltalk faces blur together in a sea of one night stands blocked phone calls and shameful morning walks
but the system has failed its creator his hard shell was reflective of mine confident I'd hate him the way I hate myself I pursued him like I pursued cheap wine
a foolish underestimation found me in his bed tender words and careful hands my personal affectionate antichrist played a game worse than my plans
I fell in love with a boy just like me so much so he told me to shut the door when I leave