"I need you, Even when i say i don't. I need you to be here." I'd never heard you so vulnerable. So scared, Like you feared i'd run away. "I've got you." I told you. With firm conviction. Like i wasn't breaking inside. "This is my strength, Where i am good, I can take care of you. I've got you."
And as you got worse My resolve only grew. I'd do whatever it took To take care of you.
"Gene there's nothing we can do, The cancer's to far gone, Radiation won't cure you."
"I don't want to give up." You say with sadness and doubt.
"Of course not Gene. We're just taking a different route."
And then you looked at me. As if looking for an answer. With a tear streaked face i nodded. And said, "I've got you."
The next day you stopped talking. And 5 days later you died. And from that moment on, I wish i had lied. But, I told you i've got you. And in the end i did.
And every day since, I've still got you. Right in my heart. I spent my whole life loving you, And i'll spend the rest of my life missing you. For the rest of my life. "I've got you."
My dad died of glioblastoma multiform. A brain cancer thats incurable. He died in 20 days after diagnosis. And i was left alone, bit i was there every step of the way. I miss him every day.