It's become simpler now Now that I've walked through the coming autumn And felt the way you looked down at me When I laid my head on your lap Or the way you grabbed me showed Me your perspective Everything full of cinema And traces of biting wit.
I let you go now Though I didn't want to have to know That you would watch me go I didn't want to go have to go at all But I don't see any other way.
You don't reply And I don't need you to I'm sure you mean to Respect my time and space I grew weary Of reaching With little to no return.
I'm not sure how you feel Though I can certainly imagine The little rip tides of defense Self proclaimed justice Shaming me for wanting too much But deep within any of it Within any of that Is a whole car seat of pain.
I know your eyes Big deep wells I bathed into Even if just for a moment All you had to do was tell me the truth.
I'll never forget The way it has felt To see you become like the rest.
I know you loved me Alex I don't think I'll ever doubt that But a hundred screaming silent empty mouthes Mirrored in a pane of glass Couldn't make me stay.