Bewildered in my own dissolution
Never thought It would come to this
As I stare down the barrel of the past 22 years
I can’t seem to find myself to be missed
For so long I have laid
Scattered like a sheet
Like a ghost throughout the hallways
No eyes to ever meet
How much my soul has lust after
She who is not mine
A friend to call upon
In the darkest of my nights
For there is no escape in this entrapment
Which binds me to the bed
Forced to sit and watch others enjoy their pleasantries
While alone in this room I have bled
As I hold out for what may not appear
Gripping on to the edge for I feel it so near
I wait for the sweet caress of the morning to come
Only to arrive at blackening of my very soul
What I begin to lack in empathy
I make up for in shame
So much this has taken out of me
There’s so much I wish to say
As I sit alone in misery
Watching my youth slowly fade
What he gives
He in turn takes away
For the world has been so callus
Never is anything free
What it rips from your hands
It only replaces with its vile deceit
Nothing more do I want from it
For so long it has remained the same
Take me away from it all
Release me from this state