In the muddle and the mess that is my mind I could do with some perspective Someone else's perception of this one-sided, two way conversation that's been going on for hours days years I can not be objective about the very personal subject of Me.
My life is clearly complicated I am my self and all the rest of me and we are a confused and cross-wired bunch
The answers lie inside I try to dig them out but when it comes right down to it I lose the nerve the will the reason and I retreat run back to on-the-surface sanity so as far as you can see, I'm happy look at me! I smile in all your snaps and photographs and sometimes the twinkle is sincere but what we have here is a well-practised masking of emotion Make me look more like the me I imagine myself to be so that, by the time I get there, I can provide the fools with proof that I was never afraid never ashamed never appalled or unsure or unsettled never shattered or shocked never wrong, all right; every night was my party - and every place was my home.