"hey" you text me
so casual
so calm
but even before a hurricane
the sun still shines
i read that you have someone new
someone real
someone there
my heart launches into space
desperately attempting to escape the pain
but pain travels at the speed of light
and my heart is not nearly fast enough
"it's okay" i tell you
because i understand
i really do
that one cannot control whom they love

although we never 'made it official'
i still felt as though we somewhat were
but when he came into your life
suddenly his name was in your beginning page
yet mine had never been
and in your book you wrote
that he made you "the happiest you'd ever been"
yet i was never in your book
sometimes i feel as though you were ashamed of me
although i know it isn't true

the day you told me
i almost couldn't stand it
for days i sat in sorrow
looking into oblivion with a vacant stare
i wanted to cry
and some days i did
but my mind has a way of protecting me
and it stopped my emotions before they got too bad
so now i just sit and feel fine
or feel nothing
what is the difference anyway