******* for ever letting me think you loved me.
******* for ever believing a word you say.
Honey sweatened words escape your mouth.
Sticking to my memory and torturing my brain with hungry wasps.

******* for this self hatred.
And for the self doubt I've gained.
Just because I don't hurt you.
Doesn't mean you can't hurt me.

What has this past year been for you?
Just a blimp in your self destructive ways?
Maybe if you heard your mother cry.
Begging me to get her baby girl away. Away from the devils that keep you trapped inside.

Hate me all you want *****.
But when I pulled you from hell.
You turned back around and rung the bell.

*******.