I broke myself and got shattered;
To see where the pieces would land
As i kept my eyes opened,
I eventually went blind to everything
I couldnt stop the force,
From my mind to my hands
I hated everything & everyone
I just wanted to disappear
I couldnt control what i felt
But I controlled what i wanted to be
It wasnt right;
Its still not right
My mind still has a hold on me
Im still inside the cage that i once built inside my nightmares
Im still in between walls that i built with my eyes closed
I couldnt break the cage
I couldnt tear down the walls
But i could only put up mirrors to always see myself fall
And when i fell, i broke my bones
I broke the bones that made me run
Now i cannot even run away from my fears
I cannot run away from whats been undone
Struggling to breathe
Thats when i start choke
My hands try to uncover invisible ropes that cut off the air between my throat
Each thought,
I think of doing
Each fear,
I hope of disappearing
Each action
I try to fight
Each tear
That i cry every night
The pieces that got bent were struggling to stay together
The pieces that broke were all the positive ones
The pieces that got shattered were the ones that i kept dreaming
The pieces that fell down were the ones who were weak
The pieces that i found;
It was too late to put them back together;
And so inside these pieces were mirrors,
I saw myself completely broken