Im scared to obey my enemy
That lurks inside the dark
It haunts me
It finds me
It destroys me
And i dont know how to defend myself
My nightmares attack me
They chase away my dreams
In the night i wake;
Trying to breathe as i gasp for air
I realize im being choked
Makes me scream
Makes me cry
Makes me silent
Makes me lie
Makes me depressed
Makes me angry
Makes me anxious
Makes me harm me
Makes me different
Makes me a danger
Makes me different
Makes me a stranger
What are you so afraid of? They ask
Its just the dark
And then i try to so hard to believe its just the darkness
But if i talk,
If i express;
They will all think im so crazy
I try to undo this fear that im holding onto
This fear that stays,
Will follow me around forever
I dont wanna be here anymore
I try to break through my body with weapons,
Hoping ill be set free
But i only bleed to drown in my own soul
Im inside my own cage,
& threw away the key
Theres no escape now
When will i be set free?
These eyes that go red;
And then begin to tear
These ears that go sensitive;
And then forced to obey
These lungs that begin to collapse;
Then i hyperventilate
These hands that become violent;
Then i begin to bleed
This heart that turns black;
Then finally, it breaks
This thing that wasnt under my bed,
Has shown me it was inside my head