I tried to cover my wounds because i used a weapon towards myself
But i kept bleeding
I tried to fix myself because i was broken
But i couldnt attach myself
I broke even more
And then i shattered
Then i tried to find my pieces
But they all got blown away
Ive searched for myself
But my pieces were gone
I kept bleeding
And then i had dizziness
But the pain all went away
Unattached; but attached to the pain i give myself
Im shattered;
But i rather not find myself
When i do, im fighting an enemy from years ago
The puddles that i bleed allowed me to faint inside my nightmares
When there was no more pain
I wanted to feel pain again;
To feel the piercing once again
The blades against my breathing allow relaxation into my body once again
I only breathe when i hyperventilate
And thats how i learned to breathe once again
I chase my fears
I manipulate my fears
I run from my fears
But then i give into my fears
My mind chases me
My mind manipulates me
My mind finds me
Because ive slowed down
My heart creeps what it fears
My mind captures what it wants
I wanted both
And now im addicted
I wanna fight again
To feel the pain once again
Unleashing my conscience once again
My mind tricked me once again
Its a crave for fear;
A crave for darkness
The light blinded me because im tamed
I wanna fight my fears once again
I wanna fight without no help
I wanna get off the life support im inhaling into my body
I wanna face myself one more time
& see myself win against myself
Will i be strong
Will i become weak
I want to breathe in poison and fight it one more time
And now i wanna completely empty
With the drug forgetting me
Am i going to struggle
Am i going to hurt myself once again