What is happening
My demons are reappearing
The darkness has chased away the light
Now im left to cry
Im in shock
My body has been struck
I lay here broken;
Im unable to move;
Unable to talk;
Unable to breathe
My hands are on my neck
The bruises are inside my body
So im choking
And im not breathing
Im testing my pulse
Will my heartbeats disappear
Because i feel like im already dead.
And inside my body,
My bones are becoming brittle
Im losing myself all over again
Why am i disappearing again
Im pulling myself to stay
I feel so alone
Inside my head its only me
And when im distracted,
Im pushing everyone away
Im still holding on,
Im still breaking free.
The pain is not over yet,
It wont even let me sleep.
Im so lost
And im helpless
Im unsure of what to do
I dont even know this feeling
I just dont know if i can make it through
Again im squeezing;
My neck is being trapped
Im losing air
Im losing feeling
And all these things im trying to fight back
Save me from myself
Myself is being bullied
Bullied; im pushed
Pushed on the floor
And terrorized
Untie me from my hands
Release me from my mind
Im struggling; im fighting
To finally save my life
Broken; bleeding on the floor
I opened my own cuts
Only myself can stitch up the mess
Only myself can free my soul
Only i can save myself
It needs to end