Im bleeding,
Dripping alot.
Im crying,
It pours into a puddle made for me to drown in.
Its like my body was used to fight off whats going on in my head.
I dont know what to do any more.
The force from my head,
Pushes me to physically hurt myself.
& I keep asking my conscience,
Why Im being used.
The dark side of me is taking control;
Leaving my other side to suffer.
I look in the mirror to see nothing but a stranger.
My mind controls my body & soul.
& I have no choice but to listen & obey.
& its when I dont know what to do.
Is it right?
or is it wrong?
Am I stupid?
Because I dont know who I am anymore.
My actions are speaking louder,
Because my mind wont give up.
Why cant I finally let go?
Let go of all this negativity I have built inside me;
That was brought through my head.
Inside my head,
I take the anger all upon myself.
Inside my head,
I take the sadness upon myself.
In my head,
I take the fear upon myself.
And in my head,
I physically take advantage of myself.
It pushes me.
It tricks me.
It allows me to hurt myself;
Physically.
My mentality is what Im forced to follow.