Decisions of everyones thinking;
The sounds of they're voices.
So sick.
So tired.
I dont wanna hear it anymore.
And Im being controlled by everything;
Everyone.
My mind is so confused.
My heart cant give me a response.
& my breathing is releasing itself from my body.
Im breathing,
But not on my own.
Im hyperventilating,
And they're making it faster.
Ive stopped breathing,
So they've suffocated me.
Im struggling so much.
I dont know what to believe.
I dont know who to trust.
I lost control of it.
I hear so much *******.
But when I want the truth,
Theres so much static for me to understand.
So controlled,
I feel so trapped.
So naive,
I feel mislead.
So claustrophobic,
Im being forced to breathe in different ways.
Fast to the point I cannot catch my breathe.
Slow to the point that the air has stopped.
My heart,
My head,
Is so confused.
My head,
Is no longer in charge of me.
That master is dead.
So everyone has taken over.
Im in knots.
Im being fooled.
Im being lied to.
& Im going crazy.
The drama they cause,
Plays with my body.
Its an overreaction I cannot control.
Its the breathing I lost control of.
So the air comes through when they have me in the spot.
They're voices hurt my ears.
They're breathing overpowers mine.
They know how to control me.
So confused,
I gave up.
Everything can just finally destroy me.
Because inside Im mentally dead.
Im in the middle of it all,
So I just wanna break & fall.
Inside Im already broken.
The whispering,
The talking,
The staring,
First anxiety.
The lies,
The cheating,
The games,
Second anxiety.
The yelling,
The fighting,
The issues,
Third anxiety.
The anger,
The depression,
The confusion,
Its never gonna stop.
I know they have the power to control my air.