These wounds arent healing;
& the pain is too strong for me to handle.
Ive fought enough,
But fighting the person within me.
My mind has put a stop sign in front of my own eyes;
& like the naive girl that I am,
I obeyed.
Ive pulled myself away from everything,
& abandoned my spirits.
Im no longer the person I used to be.
Changing into a stranger I dont even know,
Im finally broken.
Im not strong anymore.
My strength was taken from my own self;
& all this time Ive been sick.
I dont know what to do anymore.
Its too late for me to get better.
& I regret turning my back on everything,
Everyone,
Myself.
Never understood anything,
Because I wasnt allowed to be smart.
My mind had locked me up from day one;
& so I couldnt learn.
But only learned how to bleed.
And so my mind took me somewhere else.
My mind transformed me completely.
& I wish I wasnt here;
To bring all the pain to life,
To be who I am now.