Everything is just building up inside me.
Everything is getting trapped in my head.
Nothing can escape me;
& Im unable to breathe.
Everything is up to my throat;
So I have no more room to take anything else in.
I keep myself closed in;
& so I keep everything inside.
Too much is being thrown at me;
& I cannot defend myself.
So Im bruised all over.
My wounds stay with me forever;
Because my scars will never fade.
& my heart will never be the same again.
Im just broken up inside;
& each piece has a problem attached to it.
I just want to put myself together again;
& let problems slide completely off my body;
& shatter to pieces;
Like I did on the floor.
I have no time to think.
I have no time to breathe;
When all the weight is on my shoulders.
Its like Im carrying the world.
My strength cant hold me up anymore;
Because everything has just pushed me down;
& now its too late to help myself up.
& If im lucky, an elevator will bring me back up to the level I started at.