Suddenly,
Something has just came over me.
Suddenly,
Something just triggered my head.
Im walking slow down the streets,
Im keeping my head down;
So noone can see me.
The wind just whispers in my ears;
"Everything will be ok."
But I just keep staring down at the puddles;
Reminding me of the tears I cry;
& when I drown deep inside them.
I just cant stop day dreaming;
At the traffic lights,
& in my house.
Day turns dark,
My heart is getting faster.
My breathing is getting heavier.
Tears start running down my face.
An anxiety attack is what has approached me.
I cannot control it;
I cannot stop it.
Im on the floor;
"What is wrong with me?"
I cannot control myself;
Im going nuts.
I just wanna close my eyes and never wake up.
Its so quiet,
My cries break the silence.
Its so empty,
My tears fill up the room.
Its so claustrophobic,
My heavy breathing blows everything away.
Its so slow,
My racing heart speeds everything up.
& in the end I drown myself with alcohol;
& in the end I hurt myself;
Relaxing my nerves;
Relaxing my worries
Relaxing my cries;
Relaxing my anxieties;
Clearing all the negativity..
For the moment.
..& then tomorrows another day.