Unable to breathe.
Unable to speak.
Unable to hear.
Unable to see.
My hands are choking my own throat;
& my feet are tripping my own body to the ground.
This invisible cage Im locked in,
Has made me a different person.
I appear crazy.
I appear angry.
I appear depressed.
I appear negative.
I appear bitter.
I appear fearful.
I appear in distress.
Whos going to save me now?
Whos going to listen to my screams?
Cause this voice in my head,
Is forcing me to swallow everything;
When my heart wants me to spit everything out.
No place to go.
Nowhere to run to.
Noone to talk to.
I have abandoned myself.
I have abused myself.
I have killed my spirits.
My soul stays trapped in the mirror forever.
Everywhere I turn,
& everything I touch;
Traps me inside my own mind.
It doesnt allow me to think.
It only allows me to fail.
Because this stranger doesnt recognize me anymore.
She ripped me apart.
She fought me to the ground.
She tortured me until I dripped with blood.
She made sure noone was around.
I,
The stranger.
I,
The abuser.
I,
Who trapped myself inside my own head.
I cannot escape my fears anymore.
Because I forced myself to struggle.