Theres no air to breathe;
Because Im drowning.
Theres no space to move;
Because Im drowning.
Im trying to fight.
Im trying to be calm.
But all im doing is panicking.
I cannot swim against my waves anymore.
Because I keep choking;
& because I keep getting pulled down to the bottom.
& finally, Im underground.
Ive been drowning for years;
& I cant take it anymore.
Ive been choking for years;
& I cant breathe anymore.
Ive been falling for years;
& I cannot feel anymore.
No matter how much I try to keep my head above the water;
No matter how much I try to keep my tears inside my body;
My mind is just forcing me to bring myself underground.
I will never be able to swim again.
Because my tears will never be held back.
They will always be released.
& I will never know how to win against myself,
If I cant swim against my own water.