I cannot be the person I used to be
Its hard for me to release the stranger thats inside me
All this negative energy needs to stop
I just want it to end
I try so hard to see myself,
But all I see is an inner enemy
I just want to shatter to pieces;
To release whats inside of me,
Then put my pieces back together cautiously;
So nothing else gets trapped inside me
But instead I keep bleeding
I keep getting weak
I keep getting dizzy
I keep releasing what I shouldnt be releasing
But everything is escaping
& I keep abusing myself
& So Im always drained
Why cant I release whats inside me
I just want to be myself again
Because the mirror is always lying
I cannot breathe no more
Because now Im claustrophobic
I feel as if everything is pushing me in a corner,
& I cannot make any holes
My inner enemy has brought negativity into my soul
& so now my head is filled with drama
My mind has suddenly changed
Because it gives me wrong information
& this is why Im troubled
I have taught myself the wrong things
& excluded the right things
Now I have noone to show me the right path
& I knew I was always wrong to listen to myself
& I knew I was stubborn
& I knew other people were right
& now I know I cant ever trust myself with anything
Anymore
I have failed