These problems,
This drama,
Has made me crazy.
This life,
This world,
Has done everything but save me.
I use to see straight,
I use to see the light,
Now I see crooked,
And now I only see the night.
I've changed,
I've weakened,
I've brought myself to depression,
I've turned my back,
I've ended all happiness,
I've given the mirror no more attention.
The puddles on the floor,
Is not rain from the sky.
It is my water that falls;
Its the tears from my eyes.
I've been told to be strong,
When I know I can only be weak.
I've been told things would change for the better,
But Im seeing everything differently.
I keep telling myself things will be alright,
I keep telling myself things will turn out fine.
I keep telling myself I dont need to hide;
But Im only telling myself a bunch of lies.
I struggle.
I panic.
I worry.
I cry.
I tremble.
I fear.
I just want to die.
Im gasping for air,
My heart beats faster.
My fingers go numb,
My heads a disaster.
No matter how hard I push myself,
No matter what I do.
No matter how hard I try for myself,
I know I will never make it through.
Im scared to believe,
Im scared to breathe.
Im scared to live,
So I just want to leave.
The past is my present nightmares,
Which the future, it will haunt me.
The future will bring up my past,
But for now,
My present is severely destroying me.