Everything seems like its ending
My mind is driving me insane
My moods are confusing me
I feel that I have lost everything,
And that everything has turned its back on me.
Im just trapped in my own body,
Because Im not what I use to be.
A stranger has broke me apart,
And is now living inside my soul.
Because when I look in the mirror,
I dont know who that troubled girl is.
The exorcist within me has shown me the dark side;
& made me forget the light.
I just dont care anymore.
Memory has faded from my head.
It was replaced with unknown passages,
And an unknown life.
I dont know where to go
I dont know what to do
I dont know who to talk to
I dont know how to live
Im screaming louder then ever,
But noone can hear me.
Im a mute to everyone including myself.
Im running away,
But im unable to hide.
There is nowhere to run to;
Because I just end up running back to myself.
I use a knife to try to get the stranger out of me;
But all that comes out is blood.
The cuts just remain noticeable & leave me cut up,
With the stranger trapped inside me.
I just feel torn apart,
Because my body is here, but my mind is somewhere else.
God please help me,
Because Im not strong anymore.
I feel like my strength has been ****** out of me,
Because I feel drained.
God please guide me once again;
Because I walked down the wrong path.
I have listened to nobody but myself;
And that is the reason why Im stranded,
The reason why Im abandoned,
The reason why I suffer,
The reason why I negatively changed.
Im a danger to myself.
I let all positivity escape me.
And because Im mentally weak,
I always thought I was strong.
I've brainwashed myself into someone I cannot recognize.
& when I look in the mirror,
The reflection blinds me.
When I turn,
It pushes me right to the floor.
I always fell,
Because I bullied myself,
& was unable to defend.
I have bruised the inside of my body
& left myself scared of my own self.
I know that everything is my fault.
I've given up on everything
I have let people down
I have ignored
I have failed
I have lost interest
I have lost hope
I have lost confidence
I have lost self-respect
I have completely lost myself.