I hide behind myself;
Behind my soul
My shadow appears trapped in the mirror
Unable to step forward,
Because Im forced to step back.
Like a chain that brakes,
Im broken;
Disconnected from what held me together.
Separated from being close.
I appear far;
Far away from everyone.
I seclude myself from the world;
Not caring about life.
Ive taken away the positive emotions coming from inside me.
& replaced with negative emotions that wont leave my body.
The party is at one end of the table,
While I move to the other side.
I refuse to connect with everybody
I talk in silence inside my head.
My conscience yells in my ear.
I refuse to ignore,
I refuse to move,
I am frozen like ice,
Because I wont melt down to what I used to be.
Silence has replaced my mouth
Darkness has replaced my eyes
Closure has replaced my nose
Static has replaced my ears
& so the wall has replaced my body,
Because I refuse to go farther.
The invisible wall blocks me from getting out;
Because I force myself to be distant.
Distant from people
And distant from myself.