I think about leaving
A lot more than I should
I know I love you so much
That’d it’d break my heart
If only I could stay
But three more months
Is my limit
And I feel like
I’ve started counting down days
I enjoy being with you
But there’s more flaws than I can handle
And I know we’d have tough times
But
I didn’t know I’d be alone though them
Because when I need you most you seem to become a blank screen
A video game is all you see
And you say you love me but honestly I don’t know what you mean
You show it when it’s meant to but do you ever want to text me
I love you ?
Because the conversation only starts if I talk
Otherwise it’d be silence and nothing more
And maybe I’m looking at this wrong maybe it’s my anxiety and I’m staring at a mirror that only shows my flaws
I’m reading the book backwards
And knew the ending from the start