I didn't think anything of the ringing in my ears until you told me that silence shouldn't be so loud You had that same problem. Too many concerts that were far too loud Too many nights driving with the windows down Blasting our favorite songs and screaming our hearts out I wouldn't take a single second back given the chance And I'd hope for the same of you. I think of you whenever it rains because you loved it so much As did I. I think of sitting in your car while the raindrops on the window shone onto my thigh That's when I learned to find beauty in the smallest of things Like the way your laugh was rough and sweet And how your eyes glimmered when they met mine. The other day there was a firefly outside of my bedroom window I had been crying over the empty feeling that tends to settle in my chest when I am alone And when I saw its tiny flickering on my windowsill I managed a smile. Because I thought of the day we met And how the cranberry bog hosted as many as I had ever seen in one place You walked behind as I chased them in my bright yellow shoes And you held me as I sobbed over their tiny significance. When I can feel past unwelcome hands on my skin and in my bones I think of the night you saw me scared shitless, sobbing next to you in bed I covered my mouth to muffle the sound of my fear as hot tears fell onto my cheeks. You held my shaking palm in your own And then held me in your arms, which I have grown accustomed to call my home. If I had one wish, it would be to posses the ability to evoke the feeling of your arms around me at will. When you'd ask if I have ever been in love I'd find myself lost Because in all of the past relationships I've taken part in I have never felt nearly as happy and alive as I did when you were by my side. So I guess, though current, The answer to your question Is yes.
i've slept a lot lately because my dreams are the only time i get to see you anymore