You have me feeling,
Feeling hopeful than usual.

You are seeing me in my most honest element

You would not like the girl who layed on the ground awaiting to be picked up by him.

I now feel unafraid to lose for what does not want to stay
For what is not meant to stay

I am only
afraid
Tired
Drained
to add number 9

Old habits try to break me
As fast as they come and slow to go

They rapidly repeat...

His mouth matches experiment 1
He does not want you like experiemt 5
He is seeing someone else like 1 and 5

It won't be the same tomorrow
I'll know his real truth tomorrow

"good morning chula"
..my heart smiles

you are still here

And this cycle of hopeless thoughts repeat and repeat and repeat

"how are you chula?"
..my heart smiles

You are still here

And this dam cycle of fear repeats and repeats and repeats
late at night when you disappear for 2 days
At times

"como  te va?"
...my heart melts
..You are still here

Number 8?
Let's see where this goes

Years of practice
Proud and tall
She picks herself up
Cripled at heart
But she's up

You are now just a pair of eyes I want to impress for the better of me

..if I can do it.

Heart in cloud 9
Brought down to step 1.
"let's see where we go"
He says

Only 3 months in
I know I sound crazy
You are not mine yet
but simply a friend

Truthfuly and most sweet

I now know
soft whispers
Patient steps
Eyes that see me
Hands that push

I feel consistency