Will I really let this be the death of me
A weakness so pitiful
Cigarette smoke and carcinogens
Why do I place value on such an ugly foe
Blackened lungs
Hacking cough
Body turning to ash
Looking back in 10,20,30 years
Was it worth it?
So then why am I too weak to stop
I despise them
Yet I love them
Finding comfort
When death whispers in my ear
A disease upon the mind
I will keep trying
One day I pray that I succeed
To toss this ugly demon in the ditch