wish it was that easy
to say goodbye
to you or uhm...to life
but my nerves betray me
for they feel the pain
that only sustains
the will to love
the will to live

who is ever happy anyway?
since when is that the goal?
if it were no one would ever
fall in love
fall at all

wish it was that easy
to do what i want
to feel how i feel
free from expectation or guilt
but my mind it betrays me
with thoughts of how
it's suppose to be
it's not how it suppose to be

when are we ever free
from country or misery
are we really so foolish to think
that we are our own

are we striving for peace or purpose
'*** God knows you can't have both
if you're fighting the good fight
you have all the right
to know

we all love our chaos
it's ours and ours alone
we all love our own chaos
it's mine and mine alone