My entire life deserves a warning label

A big ******* caution sign

saying to turn the other way.

I remember a friend I lost
because I tried stretching myself thin to make them happy.
because I saw their love(lust?) for me. [I didn't realize]
because I thought I could FIX them.

I remember my first girl
smart
great body
the best ******* shower-buddy

Jealousy made everything hazy
and the last year I spent ******* around with people
only to find that I was still hollow

So if you want to know why I'm so ****** up
Re-read this a few times
cause maybe you'll find something that I missed