Deep breath, take the dive,
Don't believe that I'll survive,
And yet I know you will all just carry on...
The world will just spin on...

Like nothing ever happened.

No me, no death,
no surprise, no divine intervention,
could prove you all were ever wrong.

Cry to myself,
Wonder why none of you ever helped,
When I needed you the most...

Came out of my shell,
I was living through a hell,
Like I was stranded on a coast.

(“It’s time to punish him.”
...I can hear it already.)

So you drag me out to sea...
Hoist the anchor onto me...
As you let it sink,
I barely even blink,
I'm already falling underneath...
You.

I don't wanna suffocate, “no more!”
I don't wanna hit the ocean floor!
Pounding in my chest, my very core...
My heart was a safety vest, but then it tore...

With a hold on nothing, I'll slip away,
I’ll face my thousand sins, wish for the gentle sound of pouring rain,
When it's time to face the hands of fate,
I know if I fall under, I'll suffocate.

My back to the wind,
Just wanted you to let me in...
All it would’ve took was an open door.
But even then,
I was already broken...
I’m so pathetic, just a bore.

It’s already too late.

Our breath, our sin,
Can we stop if we begin?
It's a pain, that I don’t want anymore.

We say we don't mind,
But we're just passing the time,
Until we scatter, or reform.

And I know I'm flying blind,
But it's just simply unkind,
To be put in this unhealthy spot.
But I guess it’s not just me, it’s a lot.

But it’s just simply unfair,
To be born into a hell,
Of a mind that is doomed to fail.

When I walk anywhere,
People look at me, aware,
They give me a disgusted, weird stare.
I could tell them “I’m already done,
I stopped long ago, no reason to be alarmed!”
But what good would that do?

What good would it do,
In a world where people like me, are considered insane?
In a world where people like me, are constantly put down?
Abandoned, because of their inevitable breakdowns?

Nothing.
Nothing at all.

There is no one you can trust...
Can you even trust yourself?
After all, its considered a must.

(No?
Then from what I’ve heard, you’re not ready for a relationship.
Look, it doesn’t matter if you won’t ever change from this,
In this society, you do not fit in,
You are not needed, and will be thrown away by everyone.)

I don't wanna suffocate, “no more.”
I don't wanna hit the ocean floor...
Is it even pounding in my chest, my very core...?
My heart was a safety vest, but then it tore...

With a hold on nothing, I slip away,
Face my thousand sins, wishing for the gentle sound of pouring rain,
It’s time to face the hands of fate,
I’m falling under, I'm about to suffocate.

I don't wanna suffocate, “no more...”
But I've already hit the ocean floor...
No more pounding in my chest, my very core,
Has already stopped, I am no more.

(Just another of my fantasies,
But really, I don’t have any strategies,
Will I wait
To suffocate,
Or take control,
Choose my own fate?)