Aug 2018
I was dropped into a universe that hated me.
The night time cascades over the city,
Spattering a lifetime of stars evenly across the deep blue canvas, swelling to fit the picture beyond the frame that secures it
While the lights below the horizon glimmer,
tumbling and blinking, rolling through the atmosphere, each flash a new life and a new soul
My right hand is raised straight above my hand, clasped onto a thin thread, while my legs dangle and I am a rag doll
On the end of the thread opposite of my fist is a balloon that is transporting me down,
Down, so that my soul can join the flocks of strangers
Swaying like lovers found alone in a crystal ball room
I let the night breeze tickle my toes and plant goose bump kisses on my skin
In 3, 2, 1 my feet are planted into the soil where I will grow like a ****, but meant to bloom like a bud
I was born from the seed of a rose,
Sprouting all the thorn
but never birthing a petal
I was dropped down into the world
Holding hope in my left hand, gripping as tightly as I can
Only to realize that my course had been set incorrectly
The oxygen too thick for my tiny lungs
And the people too cruel for my swollen heart
I was dropped into a universe that hated me.
My brain was a train track where the wheels were always spinning
Untamable locomotion
And motions make me sick
My body was never my friend, rebelling against my brain in a chemical manor so harsh that my heart experiences third degree burns
Soon, it hurt to love
Shortly after I landed here the mechanical properties of my body were unstrung from my soul
Before my pulse was harmonious with the rush of Oxytocin that was produced in my mind and flourished through my veins
But the pressure of the heavy atmosphere locked the loving hormone within the constraints of my skull
I landed in a universe that hated me
And soon the citizens of this world hated me too
Their spit darted at me like bullets
Loaded into a mouthful of hatred
In a land where everyone was the same
Acted the same
Dressed the same
My differences was despiteful
Everyone was looking for a corner piece
But each edge of mine had a unique fixture jutting out
How cold
And how lonely
Is it to be trapped in a universe dousing me with misfortune
How dreadful to never escape
A universe that hates me.
The night time cascades over the city,
Spattering a lifetime of stars evenly across the deep blue canvas, swelling to fit the picture beyond the frame that secures it
While the lights below the horizon glimmer,
tumbling and blinking, rolling through the atmosphere, each flash a new life and a new soul
My right hand is raised straight above my hand, clasped onto a thin thread, while my legs dangle and I am a rag doll
On the end of the thread opposite of my fist is a balloon that is transporting me down,
Down, so that my soul can join the flocks of strangers
Swaying like lovers found alone in a crystal ball room
I let the night breeze tickle my toes and plant goose bump kisses on my skin
In 3, 2, 1 my feet are planted into the soil where I will grow like a ****, but meant to bloom like a bud
I was born from the seed of a rose,
Sprouting all the thorn
but never birthing a petal
I was dropped down into the world
Holding hope in my left hand, gripping as tightly as I can
Only to realize that my course had been set incorrectly
The oxygen too thick for my tiny lungs
And the people too cruel for my swollen heart
I was dropped into a universe that hated me.
My brain was a train track where the wheels were always spinning
Untamable locomotion
And motions make me sick
My body was never my friend, rebelling against my brain in a chemical manor so harsh that my heart experiences third degree burns
Soon, it hurt to love
Shortly after I landed here the mechanical properties of my body were unstrung from my soul
Before my pulse was harmonious with the rush of Oxytocin that was produced in my mind and flourished through my veins
But the pressure of the heavy atmosphere locked the loving hormone within the constraints of my skull
I landed in a universe that hated me
And soon the citizens of this world hated me too
Their spit darted at me like bullets
Loaded into a mouthful of hatred
In a land where everyone was the same
Acted the same
Dressed the same
My differences was despiteful
Everyone was looking for a corner piece
But each edge of mine had a unique fixture jutting out
How cold
And how lonely
Is it to be trapped in a universe dousing me with misfortune
How dreadful to never escape
A universe that hates me.
